Not much to update for Part II of the Gemini decan 3 Ruin experience, except I did experience a pretty lousy mental mind-state at one point. Really negative, in a way I haven’t been in a while. Some of the old “not-good-enoughs” cropping up, and some FOMO, and feeling left out of some things. Fears of old age, sickness, and death. Existential angst. Being entirely tired of the world as it currently is. Over the worst of it now. The peak of it was when the Sun was at the Gemini 3 decan degree that exactly squared my natal Chiron in house 2, which makes sense: the wound in the place of self-worth. This transit happens to me every year at this time, so it is nothing new!

Feeling a little down that when this decan is over the days will be shortening again; the dying of the light. But it takes a while before it is too noticeable, so must enjoy what there is while it lasts.

Other than that, there were some choices and sacrifices made in the garden, as I had to pick and choose what got the last of the space and what will be abandoned, as I had more types of squash plants than space for them. Gave away the last half dozen tomato plants that didn’t fit.

Also transplanted a big tray of celariac that has been languishing and the cells all seemed to have two plants. Normally I am frugal enough to carefully separate them and plant both. Not this time; just ruthlessly ripped out and discarded one of each one. Probably futile to even plant them as they take a long time and it is very late, but couldn’t bear to throw them all out. Interestingly, I think in Chinese constellation mythology, the constellation Gemini was supposed to be two plants; you can see them in the Lovers card of Telos Tarot, just below the lyre between the shadow-lovers and the twinned boys.

I’m also very over gardening at the moment, and not feeling the writing-editing process. I have not been able to do much work on finishing editing and design work on the great big book either; though I did do quite a bit at the start of the decan. Kind of a crisis of confidence or something. But last night I dreamed it was done, and that I got a sample of it in an instant download like when something gets beamed down in Star Trek. It was a huge hardcover in color. Which is never going to happen, cost-wise, but it looked pretty cool in the dream.

I need to get back to doing visual art; this writing business isn’t what I gravitate to, left to my own devices. If I go too long without doing some type of art I’m less happy; it is a pattern I’ve noticed. But the choice was made to do this book so now I have to finish one thing before starting another; I can’t seem to do both at once. I have left brain and right brain abilities but apparently not at the same time. So it will come when it is meant to I guess.

In good news, it is salad season, and boy now that we are just about to the cusp of Gemini/Cancer there are a nice variety of lettuces out there in the garden; I think of lettuce as a Cancer plant, but Gemini as the lover of variety. But I’m getting ahead of myself. It’s already salad season and the challenge is to eat it every day from Gemini through Cancer without growing bored. This Gemini decan has been good for coming up with some new salad creation every day so it is never the same thing twice. I suppose that is a little bit of creativity in its own right.

This was a recent salad creation based on the colors for Gemini decan 3. It actually has an element of every one of the listed colors.

Color(s)	Citrine-Olive-Russet-Black, all gold flecked; plus the colors of the associated Majors
Colors of the associated Majors	The Lovers: Orange – Pale Mauve – New Yellow Leather – Reddish Grey, inclined to Mauve. The Sun: Orange – Gold Yellow – Rich Amber – Amber, rayed Red

And the fireflies are thriving and the mountain laurel is in full bloom: a Midsummer Night’s dream.

Really looking forward to the next Cancer decans coming up (Love and Abundance). We have an outdoor pre-Solstice dinner with friends planned, which should be fun. Happy Solstice to all!